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In the heart of Virginia, where the forests hide secrets and the creeks run strong and deep ~
Libbie Havens doesn’t need anyone. She’s fine on her own. When she
chances upon the secluded house on Cub Creek she purchases it. She’ll
show her cousin Liz, and other doubters, that she can rise above her
past and live happily and successfully on her own terms.
Libbie has emotional problems born of a troubled childhood. Raised
by a grandmother she could never please, Libbie is more comfortable not
being comfortable with people. She knows she’s different from most. She
has special gifts, or curses, but are they real? Or are they products of
her history and dysfunction?
At Cub Creek Libbie makes friends and attracts the romantic interest
of two local men, Dan Wheeler and Jim Mitchell. Relationships with her
cousin and other family members improve dramatically and Libbie
experiences true happiness—until tragedy occurs.
Having lost the good things gained at Cub Creek, Libbie must find a
way to overcome her troubles, to finally rise above them and seize
control of her life and future, or risk losing everything, including
herself.
Chapter One – Cub
Creek Excerpt
One wrong turn and Libbie was
lost.
The narrow country road dipped
and curved through mile after mile of roadside forest, but if she
kept driving south through Louisa County, she’d reach Interstate 64
eventually. She was traveling to Charlottesville to visit her cousin
Liz and, given her mood today, eventually was soon enough.
The trees were closely-packed,
but their branches were bare. Only the hollies and evergreens had
color. As she rounded a sharp bend the vista opened and a horse farm
came into view.
Clean white fences stretched
across the pastures. A huge barn, faded red and picture-perfect,
graced the crest of the hill. Before her foot hit the brake, she was
already grabbing her camera.
The shoulder was narrow and the
ditch was deep. Libbie angled the car across the oncoming lane to the
far side. The tires hit the wide, grassy verge with a short,
heart-jolting skid. When her car stopped, the bumper was kissing the
black metal of a For Sale sign—now a tilted For Sale sign.
A close call, but no harm was
done. Libbie held her breath, then slowly released it.
The lawn sloped upward to a
two-storied white house.
She lowered the car window a few
inches.
The air was cool, but very mild
for February. She closed her eyes and breathed in the sharp, clean
smell of pine tags and damp earth.
Tall trees framed the wide yard
and continued around behind the house. The house was old, but its
lines were straight and true. Add that gorgeous view of the pastures
across the road and this was a win-win for whoever lived here, if
anyone did.
No porch furniture. No personal
objects in the yard.
Was it vacant? A car was parked
at the top of the driveway with a sign on the driver’s side door.
Libbie opened her door. She saw
below that the tires had gouged the soft earth and mangled the turf.
When she looked up a thin man with white hair was standing on the
porch.
He descended the steps and strode
down the hill.
The ruined grass was an
indictment—undeniable proof of her carelessness. She exited the car
and stood, waiting.
His eyes settled on the car. It
was dinged and dented and nothing special, then on her person, again
nothing special. She brushed at her blouse wishing the wrinkles away.
When she reached up to tuck her long, unruly hair behind her ears she
realized she was still holding the camera.
“Ma’am, you okay?” The man
squinted and the crow’s feet around his eyes deepened.
She gestured at the damage. “I’m
sorry. I didn’t realize the ground was so wet. I think the sign’s
okay.”
“Had to stop fast, did you?”
“The horse farm caught my
attention.” She shrugged. “I wanted to get a shot.”
“Fancy equipment. You a
photographer?”
After a brief hesitation, Libbie
nodded, then said, “Sorry about your grass.”
“Not my grass. The property
went on the market today. I’m the Realtor.”
His expression and tone were
friendly. Obviously, he wasn’t angry. She relaxed.
“It’s a nice-looking house.
It has…presence.”
“Presence and fifteen acres of
woods. It’s a wonder the owner didn’t sell the timber before
listing the house and land.”
“Did he move away?”
“No, he lives out west. He
inherited the house and property when his mother passed.” He shook
his head. “Mrs. Carson would never have sold the timber, but her
son’s a different equation.”
“I see.” But she didn’t. He
spoke about these people as if she should know them, as if she should
care about them. Libbie clutched her camera, feeling stiff again and
glad to have somewhere to put her hands.
The man continued, “Properties
like this usually get a contract before the sign goes up. This one’ll
go fast, probably to someone who’ll turn it into a subdivision.”
A subdivision. The thick woods,
the stately house and the blessed privacy—it could be devastated in
an instant. Once gone, you could never get it back. She knew that
personally. Anxiety slapped her across the face.
“How much?”
“Ma’am?”
“What’s the asking price?”
He pulled a paper flyer from a
tube attached to the sign and handed it to her.
An argument was raging full force
in her head. She tried to shut it down by ignoring it.
“Can I see inside?”
He cast a quick glance at the
house. “Can’t stay long. I promised my wife and grandkids I
wouldn’t be late.” He extended his hand and they shook. “Name’s
Sam Graham.”
“I’m Libbie Havens.”
“Aren’t you chilly, Ms.
Havens?” Mr. Graham was wearing a light jacket.
“My sweater’s in the car.”
She put the camera on the back floorboard, grabbed her sweater and
put it around her shoulders as they walked up the slope.
The trees on either side
stretched around the property like a barrier to the world.
She wanted it.
No, you don’t want it. You
live in the city and always have. Why would you want an old house out
here in the woods?
“It’s old,” she said, as
she followed him up to the porch.
He nodded. “It is, but
well-maintained. Been in the same family since it was built.” He
paused to unlock the box on the doorknob. “Can’t say that about
much, can you?” He opened the door. “Old-fashioned, but solid.”
He swept his arm in a gallant
gesture. “After you.”
Just beyond the threshold Libbie
paused and placed her hand flat against the bare wall.
She held her breath and waited. A
sense of wellness and a gentle flush of peach and gold, softly warm,
flashed from her hand to her head. The sensation and colors might
only exist in her imagination, as some insisted, but they reassured
her nonetheless. She walked further into the foyer.
He asked, “Are you okay?”
Had he noticed what she’d done?
She smiled to cover her awkwardness. “I’m fine.”
“Yes ma’am. In fact, you look
happy.”
Oddly enough, she felt happy.
The city, with its constant noise
and crowds, confused her, but it had never occurred to her that the
solution was to live in the middle of nowhere.
Crazy idea or not, she found
herself actually examining the interior of the house.
The foyer or hallway ran directly
back, past the stairs on the right. On either side of the entry way
were large, square rooms with many windows. Lots of light and no
unexpected shadows hiding in the corners. The wood floors had
scarring and uneven wear. The walls were grim, begging for fresh
paint and wallpaper stripping. Fireplaces anchored each end.
Mr. Graham continued speaking as
she went into the kitchen. It was old, with white porcelain
appliances and faded linoleum, but it was usable.
She looked in the fridge and
rubbed at a spot on the stovetop where the enamel had worn through.
They walked into the dining room
and then through French doors to a screened porch furnished with
green wicker furniture.
He checked his watch and frowned.
“Are you seriously interested in buying this property?”
“I think I am.”
“Do you have a Realtor?”
Libbie shrugged. “I didn’t
know I was in the market.”
“If you’re serious about
this, put down a deposit. A check will do. That’ll hold it while
you look into financing.”
“Financing won’t be a
problem.”
He eyed the scuffed and stained
sneakers, her non-designer jeans, the wrinkled shirt and the hair
that curled and fought to do its own thing. She saw the spark in his
eyes when he decided where to pigeon-hole her—eccentric. She didn’t
mind. That was kinder than most.
When it came to people in general
and some in particular, Libbie didn’t like them any better than
they liked her. But eccentric? That she could do, and with style.
“Ms. Havens, I don’t
usually suggest this. Put down that deposit. When I get another
offer, you can either walk away or pull the trigger.”
A day or two to think it through?
Already, the internal pressure was easing off.
“Take some time to discuss it
with your people. Do you have family? Husband and kids?”
“No.” That wasn’t quite
true. “A cousin. I’m close to my cousin and her family.”
Mr. Graham lowered his voice.
“Not to dissuade you, but I’m pretty sure you’re a city gal and
it’s mighty…well, lonesome, out here on your own, especially at
night.”
He waved his hands as if
dismissing the words he’d just uttered. “Not my place to say, of
course, but I have a wife and daughters. I’d ask them to think
about it twice, too.”
“I appreciate your concern. I’m
a solitary person. I’m fine alone.”
“Mind if I ask what brought you
here?”
“I was going to
Charlottesville. I took a wrong turn.”
“Humph. Well, I’d call that
coincidence. Or providence.”
“Maybe fate.” She stopped.
“What’s this area called?”
“You’re on Cub Creek Loop at
the old Carson place.”
He pointed toward the house and
then down the road. An old concrete bridge was half-hidden by the
curve.
“It runs through the property
and under the bridges at both ends of the Loop. Cub Creek. Watch out.
It doesn’t look all that impressive, but the water’s deep and it
runs fast.”
He jingled his keys. “I’ve
got the paperwork in the car. If you’ve got a check, then we have a
deal. At least, a temporary one.”
****
He left. Libbie stayed. She
wanted to see the place alone.
She stared at the deserted road
because she knew that when she turned back toward the house, she’d
see nothing special, just an old house with a patchy lawn. The flaws
would be obvious.
This was a big decision—a huge,
potentially life-altering decision—but no worries. She’d walk
away from this like she did from every commitment. She did, however,
want to know what she was walking away from.
It looked even better. The house
sat atop that slope like a crown. The white clapboards, brushed by
the late afternoon light, wore a sheen of burnished gold.
What would Liz say?
Libbie snapped a few photos of
the house and the view across the street, then she slung the camera
strap over her shoulder and walked around to the back yard.
The kitchen door was locked, but
the hook on the screened porch door wasn’t secured. She settled for
a sit-down on the porch swing. The swing’s back was curved. She
rested her head against it. The narrow, tight-fitting boards overhead
were painted light green. The porch floor was gray and the wicker
furniture was dark green.
Serene.
Unseen birds chirped. A squirrel
ran across the yard, then paused by an oak tree to nibble on a tiny
something.
Peaceful. Idyllic.
She tried to empty her mind, to
leave it open to sounds, smells, emotions—whatever might tell her
if anything negative lingered here.
She waited, growing more relaxed.
Her breathing slowed.
Crack.
It snapped directly behind her. A
branch? A stick? She jumped. The swing swayed wildly. She struggled
for balance.
“Ma’am?”
Had she dozed off? Apparently.
The noise may have come from behind her, but the voice came from the
other side of the porch. A man, some sort of cop judging by his
uniform, was standing a few yards away. Further back stood another
man, not in uniform, but the details were softened by the screen
between them.
“Officer?”
“Deputy.” He touched his
brimmed hat. “I saw the car. Everything okay?”
“Yes, fine. You startled me.
I’m taking a look at the place. It’s for sale.” He already knew
that, of course. She sounded foolish.
“Yes, ma’am. We try to keep
an eye on vacant houses.”
Her arms prickled. Libbie rubbed
her hands along her sleeves.
Had she truly heard that noise?
That snapping sound? She resisted turning and instead focused on
dealing with the men in front of her.
“We’ll be moving on. Will you
be staying long?”
“No, I’m leaving soon.”
He touched his hat. “Have a
good day.”
The other man nodded. They walked
away, turning the corner of the house. As soon as they were out of
sight, she spun around to stare at the woods nearest the porch.
There was nothing to see and
nothing to explain the noise. The trees and undergrowth were
winter-lean. Nature itself must have caused the sound and it had
gotten caught up in a snippet of dream while she napped.
She checked the time on her
phone. Too late now to make Liz’s house by suppertime. Liz would be
annoyed, but she’d get over it.
Libbie’s brain was full of
things to consider, but her anxiety had abated along with the
contrary voices in her head.
Her cousin usually meant well,
but they were very different people and sometimes her opinions
weren’t what Libbie viewed as supportive or encouraging.
Libbie wanted to think this
decision through on her own.
****
The spell of the house on Cub
Creek lessened with distance, allowing common sense to regain the
upper hand. By the time she neared home she regretted her
impulsiveness, but Mr. Graham was a true gentleman. He would return
her deposit.
The whole episode did make her
think seriously about moving on. Whether to Cub Creek or elsewhere,
the need to move away from here had become clear.
Her neighbor’s over-large
pickup truck was parked smack on the line between their assigned
spots leaving her little space between it and the SUV on the other
side, forcing her to squeeze her car in and then squeeze her body
out. Typical thoughtlessness and arrogance. By morning, her car would
have fresh dents on both sides.
She’d left the exterior light
burning by the door, and there were other lights, including street
lights, and her house key was in hand and ready. She slipped inside,
locked the door and dropped her bags on the chair with relief. She
poured a soda, grabbed a few oatmeal raisin cookies and plopped down
on her flowered, overstuffed sofa to call Liz.
Her cousin answered on the first
ring. “I thought you were coming to see us. The kids were
disappointed.”
Liz’s voice was steady and low.
Gentle. That’s how Libbie knew she was angry. Libbie closed her
eyes and slumped back against the sofa. She kicked off her shoes and
pulled the rose-colored sofa throw down over her legs.
“I took a wrong turn and got
lost. Besides, I told you I might come by. Might.”
“That’s true, but...”
“Maybe you’ll visit me soon
instead. It’s been ages.”
Liz sighed. “You never invite
us.”
“You’re always busy with the
kids or your friends.”
“Not too busy for you.”
Seemed better to let that line of
conversation die before she said something rude. She changed the
direction. “I may have some big news soon.”
Liz’s one word response was
sharp. “What?”
“Nothing I can share yet.”
A loud bang from next door—likely
the Duncan’s front door slamming—rattled the picture frames on
their common wall.
Liz asked, “What was that?”
“Guess who.”
“Not those people next door
again?”
“None other.” Libbie sat up
straighter and began disarranging the blanket. “He works the night
shift and leaves about now. He’s probably unhappy about how I
parked.”
Sure enough, someone started
banging on her door.
“I hear that. That’s awful.”
“I’d better go.”
“Don’t overreact, Libbie. You
always do and then regret it after.”
“Talk to you later, Liz.” She
hung up and opened the door. “Bruce?”
“You did it again. You blocked
me in. I told you I’m going to get you towed.”
“You can’t have me towed. My
car is within the lines, unlike your truck.”
“I can’t get in my truck.
You’re making me late for work.”
“Your truck is too big. Not my
problem—but you make it my problem by parking on the line.”
“You still have space on the
other side.”
“Needed for me to exit my car.
Seriously, Bruce, get a smaller vehicle, one you can manage, or climb
in through that stupid little window in the back.” She eyed his
belly deliberately. “Either way, quit bothering me.”
Libbie tried to close the door.
He stopped the door with his
thick hand. “Move the car so I can get into my truck.”
“Have your buddy on the other
side move his. Now, get your hand off the door.”
Bruce’s face turned purple and
seemed to be swelling. She remembered the phone still in her hand.
She stepped back and put the phone to her ear.
“Liz? You still there?” No
answer, of course. “I’m having a problem with the man next door
and he’s getting–”
Bruce grabbed the door knob and
pulled it closed.
Libbie didn’t expect to hear
more from him this evening. She put the phone down a little saddened
by the victory. Bruce left, yes, but why hadn’t she simply moved
her car so he could get into his truck the way he wanted to? A moment
of her time would fix a problem she hadn’t caused but had to deal
with because of rude and inconsiderate people. At least, it would fix
it for the moment. But she wouldn’t do that because bullies were
bullies. If they got away with it once, there’d be no end.
She turned in a big circle taking
in the living room and dining area of her townhouse. After five years
she hadn’t finished hanging pictures, including the photo
collections. She’d purchased no knick-knacks nor put up any
curtains. Why? Because she didn’t need more crap. She already had a
bucketful from neighbors who weren’t neighborly in a townhouse that
was uninspired.
In a city crammed with people and
traffic, she was alone. Couldn’t even manage to get along with
people on the job, time and again. So, no job. But where was the
incentive? She didn’t need the money and the jobs were a bore.
Upshot? If she was going to be
alone, then why not do it her way and on her own terms?
She remembered the golden glow of
the house on Cub Creek.
They’d say she’d lost it
again. Her mind, that is.
****
The internal struggle followed
her to bed. She spent a restless night at the mercy of thoughts, both
eager and anxious, chasing around in her head, shrill and beyond
control. She rose early, in truth giving up on sleep and glad to see
the morning. She was in the kitchen with a cup of coffee in hand when
the cell phone rang.
She knew it was him before she
answered. That’s how fate worked.
Mr. Graham said, “Sorry to
bother you so soon. A developer called with a substantial offer first
thing this morning and wasn’t happy an offer was already standing.”
He chuckled. “Upped his offer, in fact. Have you thought about it?
Decided what to do?”
“I’ve thought about
little else.”
He cleared his throat. “No need
to feel badly about rescinding the offer.”
Percussion noises reverberated
through the shared kitchen wall. Clanging and banging pots and pans
was Mrs. Duncan’s morning ritual. Presumably she was cooking, but
who could tell?
They’ll say you’re crazy,
a voice in her head
whispered.
If living as she chose showed she
was crazy, then they were right and they were invited not to share it
with her—her crazy life.
“No, sir. I’ll move forward
with the purchase.”
A sudden cold snap—but the air
was fresh and bracing and proved the furnace worked well. The house
had passed inspection. She held the keys. Front door, French doors
and back door. Each had a knob lock and a deadbolt.
Liz was coming. Libbie saw the
house through her cousin’s eyes. Scarred floor. Dingy paint. Faded
and stained wallpaper. What did she, Libbie,
see? Numerous windows,
nature all around and a picturesque horse farm across the road.
The moving van would empty her
townhouse in the morning and deliver the furniture and boxes here the
next day. She didn’t think she had a lot of stuff, but boxing it up
had taught her otherwise. Most of it was junk and she would’ve
tossed it, but then she’d have to buy more junk to replace it. The
exception was the old desk and armoire. They weighed a ton and were
antiques with more than sentimental value. They would grace the
study.
Liz’s midnight blue Benz pulled
up the driveway. She let it idle for a minute before cutting off the
engine and getting out. Through the window, Libbie saw her staring at
the house. She knew Liz was asking herself if this could possibly, in
a million unlikely years, be the place.
With the palm of her hand against
the window glass, Liz eased the car door closed, but her eyes kept
moving, taking in the house, the woods. Libbie shrugged her shoulders
to ease the taut pinch growing in the back of her neck.
By the time Liz reached the
porch, Libbie was waiting there to greet her, glad of the fresh cool
air against her cheeks.
Liz said, “You’re kidding,
right?”
“You cut your hair.”
Liz tilted her head. The blunt
ends of her straight cut brushed her jawline. “You bought a house.”
“True.”
“It’s huge.”
Libbie shrugged. “Looks bigger
from the outside.”
“What were you thinking,
Libbie? Honestly?”
“Where are the kids? I thought
they were coming, too.”
“Fine. Have it your way. Audrey
has a sleepover and Adam has soccer practice.”
“Oh.”
“I’m sorry you’re
disappointed, but we were too, when you never arrived.”
“That was more than a month
ago.”
Liz climbed the steps. “Yes. It
was the last time we saw... Rather, it was the most recent time we
didn’t
see you. One more no-show.”
“Not fair. You know I love to
visit you, Josh and the kids.” Libbie opened the door and stood
aside. “I like your new cut. Maybe I should get this mop of mine
trimmed.” She gathered her long curly hair into a twist and held it
behind her head.
Liz fixed her brown eyes on
Libbie’s. “Up to you.”
Until now, they’d kept the
banter light despite the emotion behind the words, but at this rate,
it wouldn’t last.
“Let me show you around.
Consider this, I’m almost two hours closer to you. We can visit
more often.”
Liz turned away and spoke, but it
was more like a low grunt, except Liz would never grunt. She said,
“I’d like to ask you something. You won’t get angry? Promise?”
Cautious, she answered, “Okay.”
“Have you seen Dr. Raymond
recently?”
“Barry Raymond? Why?” She
shook her head.
“Anyone else? You know…someone
you can talk to?”
Libbie crossed her arms and
stared through her cousin, not wanting to see her, wishing she’d
kept her words to herself.
“The past is the past. Let it
go, Liz.”
“I worry about you. If you
blame me for anything, blame me for that.”
“I’m fine. I wish you’d
trust me. Let’s drop it, okay?”
“Deal.”
They looked at each other in
shared relief. Libbie knew her cousin didn’t enjoy the tension
either. She shook it off and waved at the next room.
“My living room. Over there on
the other side of the front door will be my study. Behind it is the
dining room.” She moved forward. “The kitchen is that way.”
Liz was underwhelmed. “Ancient
appliances, but that hardly matters. It’s not like you’ll be
cooking.”
“I’ll cook. I’ll learn. How
hard can it be?”
Her eyebrows arched and she
laughed. “I want to see that.”
“Better to see than eat,
I imagine.” Libbie smiled. “At least for a while, but you
underestimate me.”
“On the contrary, you are
capable of doing anything you set your mind to. That’s part of your
problem. You’re too smart.”
Part of her problem? Libbie knew
what she considered to be the other part of her problem...
“But you don’t have any
common sense,” Liz added.
And that wasn’t it.
Liz had been staring out the
kitchen window. Now she moved into the dining room to stand in front
of the multiple windows along the side wall.
“These windows are nice.
Unexpected.” She did a three-sixty in the middle of the room. “This
is a nasty shade of gray or brown or whatever it is.”
“Needs cosmetic work, but the
house is sound. It has lots of potential.” She waved her hand
toward the ugly walls. “In fact, I have some fun ideas as to–”
“What about your job? You can’t
commute from here.”
Liz’s question hung in the air
between them. Libbie tried to answer in a casual kind of way. “Oh,
no worries there. I’ll be telecommuting. Working remotely.”
“Really?”
Doubt was in Liz’s voice and
its shadow was in her eyes, but she moved on, heading to the front
door.
Libbie followed. “Are you
leaving already?”
Liz paused in the doorway. “I
have to pick Josh up at the airport.”
“What do you think?” She
waved her arms around.
“Honestly, I don’t know.
Maybe if I’d ever heard you, even once, express the least interest
in country living...”
She quashed her own misgivings.
“I’m sorry you feel that way.”
“Well, no matter what, one
thing you can count on is me. I’ll be rooting for you.” With a
smile that was more business-like than chummy, Liz tossed her head
and turned away. Again, as if by appointment, her hair settled back
into place, framing her cheek and jaw.
Liz. Perfect Liz. She stepped
lightly down to the sidewalk. Perky Liz.
Libbie loved her cousin and maybe
envied her a little too, but perky? No, thanks.
Liz waved through the car window
and backed onto the lawn, then turned and drove down to the road
crunching gravel under her tires as she went.
Libbie lingered, determined to
erase the doubts Liz had expressed, her own doubts, and any
negativity from the premises. She wasn’t stupid. She knew she might
end up regretting this decision.
Take a chance, Libbie.
And she was.
As Libbie left the daylight was
fading and the sunset hinted of lavender and red as it bloomed above
the horse farm and splashed some of its color across the front of her
house.
Her house. She tried to imagine
how it would look with her furnishings filling it.
She was ready for a change and
this was a big one.
****
A neighbor was standing on the
sidewalk watching as Libbie pulled into her parking space. Not Bruce
this time but his wife who was not exactly his better half. Had he
stationed her there to monitor the parking? No. Their pooch was
nearby pooping in Libbie’s grass.
Libbie waved and smiled broadly.
Tomorrow morning the For Sale sign would go up on this little patch
of lawn.
They’d be glad to see her gone,
but that worked both ways. Maybe they could have a neighborhood
celebration in the parking lot and she’d be the absentee guest of
honor.
****
